“I don’t understand any of you. How did I raise a bunch of kids who don’t want to talk to anybody? Why are you guys like that?”
And that is why I had trouble growing up here. Social anxiety is “a made up thing. That’s not real. You just don’t feel like talking to anyone”.
OF COURSE I asked to hyperventilate when I even think about talking to someone I don’t know. OF COURSE it was my choice to have panic attacks during the middle of class. OF COURSE I wanted to not have any friends growing up. I obviously asked for these things.
I don’t even argue anymore because it will never be understood from her point of view. She never had to deal with that, so why would she see how any of her kids felt? It would have been nice to be more understood and not have been criticized and said there was something seriously wrong with me when I was younger. But I guess it makes me realize that no matter how many times you tell and explain something to someone, they won’t believe it until they want to. Some people will never want to.
I’m just glad that I know I’m not the only one, although for the sake of others I wish that I was.
Whether you know everything about the interior workings of the Millennium Falcon, Han and Leia’s Children, and the Black Sun OR you maybe watched part of one movie with your cousin chad or something like that and kinda liked it. I want to know how big our fandom is here. Just curious.